the sweet nh air swirls around me, yes that means the bugs too

Oh, the healing powers of the sweet new hampshire air never cease to amaze me. I short but fun filled trip up north was just what I needed to take my mind off of things for a while. Death and break ups can be hard on a girl, and family and friends is just the cure. Still a little shaky but I hope to keep myself busy and my mind occupied. I should bounce back soon enough. As for now, I'll stick to the sunsets and the sweet breeze blowing through my curly hair. The summer heat and the enjoyable laughter singing from every angle as I take advantage of the short vacation I'm given should be the proper remedy for heartbreak, don't you think?

Im on the road to recovery

and it's a wonderful thing that it's filled with friends who care about me. This week has been filled with sadness, and I don't think I would have made it through if it weren't for my lovely friends. They stood by my side the entire time and always tried to make me smile. I know that I can make it through anything and everything with friends like that to encourage me and tell me everything is going to be ok. With every laugh, every smile, and every tear I knew that I would make it through this tragedy. Even though it is still dark and I can't even fathom the sun rising again, my friends never cease to encourage me that someday the glowing rays will peak out from behind the trees and the colors will emerge bolder and brighter than ever. For now, I wait in silent darkness dreaming of the bright times shared with my darling in the past. Even though the light has faded from the sky and I cannot seem to find any hope of it returning, I continue to endure; I take in the encouragement and try everything in my power to let it work its magic.
Rest in peace my love <3

Death...

There's nothing more devastating than the death of a loved one. Your hopes feel crushed, your outlook on life is buried beneath the earth, and you feel you have nothing and no one to live for anymore. On Sunday, June 12, my precious, loving, sweet angel died of cancer. You may think oh its just a dog, she'll get over it. How could there be such heartless people in the world to think such a thing? She was everything and more to me. She never failed to make me smile even in my darkest moments. My princess was always there to love me and take care of me. I can't even remember a single day of my life she wasn't trotting by my side or napping on the carpet next to me, and just like that, she's gone. I never thought I'd see the day my precious angel would leave me, her death just seemed something so intanglible, so unbelievable. I know there was nothing I could have done and even though my baby is no longer with me in body, she will remain in my heart forever.  She's my little doggie angle in heaven now, watching over me and keeping me safe, even though she's no longer by my side licking my hand to encourage me. She's remains my saving grace and always will. A good friend of mine told me, "no matter the circumstance, no matter the trouble, no matter how big your burden may be, there is nothing you can't handle if you have God. he never gives you more than you can handle. he loves you more than you know and only gives you challenges to make you stronger. but he won't let you do this on your own. if you fall, he will be there to catch you. if you cry, he will hold you in his arms. if you mess up, he will still be there with open arms." I know both of them are with me and will help me through this dark time. Even though it may not seem like it right now, I know the sun will rise again. Rest in peace my love <3
Torch November 19, 2000 - June 12, 2011 <3

Summers just around the corner

and you know what that means? More sunsets! YES! So excited for school to be over! Finals start this week and I'll be out before I know it :) So what are you planning to do with your time off? I plan on spending more time doing things I love (seeing more beautiful sunsets and hopefully catching more sunrises too) an spending my days out and about, not locked up in my room all day complaining there's nothing to do. Life's for living so why not take advantage of the fact and do something with it? Even though summer hasn't officially started yet, I think my trip to the beach last weekend kicked things off right for me :) I can only hope that the rest of my summer will be as enjoyable as that one short weekend in paradise :)Here's a few snaps of the trip, more will be up soon :)

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Oh the joys of a good laugh :)

Laughter. No life should ever be without it. Laughter is one of the driving forces in my life. If I don't laugh at least once during the day, you know there's something seriously wrong. I find that one thing that makes me extremely happy (besides sunsets and sunrises of course) is making people laugh. I consider it my quest in life. I enjoy the feeling of making someone laugh until they cry as long as I find myself laughing too :) Smiles and laughter and memories to cherish, there's got to be nothing better. add these to a beautiful sunset, or in the case of this past weekend, a sunrise at the beach, and you've got yourself a recipe for pure happiness. So make some time for you and the things that make you truly happy in life. Don't live your life doing things that don't make you happy and get out there and enjoy yourself! :)
*Pictures from tonight*

Ps. sorry the link for The Only Exception got up without the post about it, still hope you enjoy it! The picture is the sunrise at the beach :)

Darling you are the only exception...

For those of you who have heard it before, The Only Exception by Paramore, is such a beautiful song. For those of you who haven't, I do highly suggest you look it up :) I would post a link but I'm on a device that won't allow that, so sorry no pictures tonight either :( Anyway, the song is about a girl who experienced love in a bad situation and promised herself that she would never put herself through the pain love can cause, however, she finds an exception. She convinced herself at an early age to not believe in love for she only experienced the pain that results from it, she never allowed herself to embrace its beauty and passion. Love is a beautiful thing, it's what God teaches us for He loves us all unconditionally and he asks in return to love Him back by loving those around us. Where would this world be without love? Think about how love is present in your own life and how you let it guide your actions and influence your choices. Is there someone you love? Could you die for that person? Think about how Jesus died for all of us. Could you ever love someone like he loves us? I think that the best part about love, being able to say that you would do anything for someone, risk it all for them, and actually meaning it. I hope that everyone can find this feeling at some point in their lives, for it's such a great feeling to have <3